audience: tsurumaru

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[preowned]

... what she did to Julius, you mean?

[ since that was uh

something. ]

[doublebladed]

That, and a few other things. [...] It's funny, because she's kind to other people and she's treated my friends kindly. I can accept that. But at the same time I've seen her as someone who panics easily, and sometimes has selfish motivations. I don't think it's always so bad, but...I feel like she doesn't listen to me when I talk to her, or think about things on a bigger scale than just outside of her own little realm. Her judgment is based more on her emotions and her own fears and experiences than the things she's learned here or learned from others.

It's why I would never trust her to be the last person remaining even though she's trusted by others. She's persistent, but at the same time she has a tendency to try and lay blame on things that don't have an answer.

[...] I've tried my best here, and a lot of the time it hasn't been enough. People say things they don't mean when they're frustrated and angry, but just because you apologize doesn't make it okay again.

[At the same time, he does feel like an asshole for being hung up on this so he just...shrugs.] I dunno. Maybe it'll be different when the universe isn't meddling, but we have a lot of important things to do when we get back to our own world. And I don't know if I can trust her to help us.

[preowned]

... I think that people will see different sides of someone, that other people might not notice. There's nothing wrong with being uncomfortable with someone even if people you're close to aren't. Your feelings are still your feelings, aren't they?

[ ... ]

Everyone's circumstances are different, and not everyone will adjust as well as others. Maybe she'll grow with time, especially if she's put in a situation that is different from this one. Something like this... even if we grow from it, it can also bring out a person's worst traits, I think.

[doublebladed]

Maybe you're right. [This is said after a very long pause of consideration.] I just don't want those worst traits to follow her when I have something important to find back home.

...but it's probably more fair to at least try. [Sigh.]

[preowned]

... does she have to actually join in on the search?

Just because she might be leaving with you doesn't mean she has to follow along everywhere.

[doublebladed]

I don't know if that's really my choice, you know? They might ask for her help, or she might try on her own. I dunno.

[preowned]

It may depend on what the work is.

If she is untrained, it'll make more sense to prepare her first instead of just tossing her into the front lines.

[doublebladed]

Yeah. She doesn't have the same weapon the rest of us do, and I don't think sending her between realms is a good idea, but we're not even sure it's a good idea for us.

[He's shaking his head.] It'll work out. I just wanted to ask someone else, I think.

[preowned]

I'm sorry if I couldn't give you the answer you were looking for.

[doublebladed]

I wouldn't say that...you gave me an honest answer, and that's all I wanted in the first place.

[preowned]

[ ... what a good kid. ]

I'm sure you'll figure out something.

[doublebladed]

Yeah...for now though, we've gotta focus on what's happening this week. Think we can make it through?

[preowned]

Well...

I don't think we really have any other choice, Roxas.

[doublebladed]

There's always another choice. It's called giving up. [But the way he says it suggests that he thinks that's a shitty choice.]

[preowned]

Ah.

Yes, I didn't consider that an option.

[doublebladed]

Neither do I. But I know some people do. [Shrug! It was just to prove his point.]

[preowned]

... that's true.

Do you think anyone here is like that?

[doublebladed]

I think so. Maybe not in the way that they would stop functioning all together, but there are people I think who would take the easy way out instead. But it's okay. I get it.

[preowned]

... I suppose I get it, but at the same time I don't.

[ in the way that he gets it'll be easier but

he'd also never dream of doing it himself. ]

[doublebladed]

You're more bound to your duty than most people, I think. Some of us have a little more difficulty giving up what we've grown used to. [There's a wry grin.] But in the end, the people here will pick the best option to make up for those who resist. That's all that matters to me.

[preowned]

... ah, you really sound like someone who's supposed to be guiding us!

[ he sounds so fond? like. a proud grandparent. ]

[doublebladed]

[He blinks in surprise because that wasn't exactly the response he was expecting...but he grins and immediately looks a little embarrassed. Thanks for that.]

Guess I've learned something after all. But it's true.

[preowned]

... yeah, I think you'd have a good idea of what the people here are like.

[doublebladed]

Not all of them, but most of them. I've been studying people for a while now. [There's a light grin.] This is still the biggest group I've ever had to work with, but it's easier to see how some people feel about others by watching you guys talk to each other.

[preowned]

I assume the interpersonal relationships in a place like this would be extremely messy.

[ an understatement. ]