Certainly, certainly. I presume you would not be so familiar with someone who would disagree with you on such a pivotal point of your ideals.
[that's not surprising. however]
... nonetheless, there are all manners of people in the world. There are various types of kindness. For you, a kindness may be to provide the service of executing her when she asked. For another, a kindness may be to save her, or to try to let her keep the life she was clinging so desperately onto. Or for Lea... a kindness may be to keep a child from being paralyzed by a fear that seized her through no fault of her own.
[it's complicated. humans are complicated - but mikazuki spends more time studying them than most]
It means that you must speak with him, in that conversation, divulge as much as you can about your thoughts on him.
You are friends, after all. Some sincerity on the subject might benefit you both.
I don't see the kindness in keeping someone alive while something like that is destroying them from the inside.
[ but he didn't really come here to debate the ethics of how each of them deals with the corruption, did he? and he especially doesn't want to think about the hand he played in mary's execution, not again, not so soon after losing lili to that same darkness.
but as it stands, he would give almost anything to be able to cut through the darkness and destroy it himself. ]
...Alright. I'll try.
[ how annoying, though, when kara doesn't even know what he's feeling half the time. ]
... and I suppose that may be where you lack some amount of his story. You do not need to always agree with people in order to understand them, and to open your heart to the way that they live.
Humans place a great amount of faith in even the barest of hopes, after all. Similarly, they feel fear of loss even more strongly than we do.
[as swords who are always guaranteed to lose. to outlive their masters, sometimes even their other companions. their existence is not quite so finite.]
Mm, then do let me know how your results are.
Shess is a friend of mine as well... Thank you for looking after him.
[ whatever, mikazuki! kara doesn't particularly care to understand axel, to be honest. why should he? there are other things to focus on, instead of wasting his time on that.
so he decides to ignore that, and focus instead on Shess for now. ]
Valvatorez has done more than me. I should have asked about it earlier.
That isn't how I wanted to find peace. We're supposed be free to make our own choices now, but mine was taken from me.
[ it's hard to tell if he's more upset about losing lili or... that. but he tries to let go of it, because it's already done, so what's the point of holding onto it now?
that's... a lot harder to do than he would have hoped. ]
Hm... If I were to recall - you had said that emotions simply get in the way of your mission, that they're difficult and useless to us.
And yet you find now that your choices are tied to your emotions, and a key choice was removed from you once you no longer possessed your emotions.
... they are a part of us now, whether you find this agreeable or not.
[there is just a smile]
I had told you - I wondered how you might feel after the curse wore off, now that you know what it's like to be entirely without the feelings that master gifted to us.
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[that's not surprising. however]
... nonetheless, there are all manners of people in the world. There are various types of kindness. For you, a kindness may be to provide the service of executing her when she asked. For another, a kindness may be to save her, or to try to let her keep the life she was clinging so desperately onto. Or for Lea... a kindness may be to keep a child from being paralyzed by a fear that seized her through no fault of her own.
[it's complicated. humans are complicated - but mikazuki spends more time studying them than most]
It means that you must speak with him, in that conversation, divulge as much as you can about your thoughts on him.
You are friends, after all. Some sincerity on the subject might benefit you both.
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[ but he didn't really come here to debate the ethics of how each of them deals with the corruption, did he? and he especially doesn't want to think about the hand he played in mary's execution, not again, not so soon after losing lili to that same darkness.
but as it stands, he would give almost anything to be able to cut through the darkness and destroy it himself. ]
...Alright. I'll try.
[ how annoying, though, when kara doesn't even know what he's feeling half the time. ]
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Humans place a great amount of faith in even the barest of hopes, after all. Similarly, they feel fear of loss even more strongly than we do.
[as swords who are always guaranteed to lose. to outlive their masters, sometimes even their other companions. their existence is not quite so finite.]
Mm, then do let me know how your results are.
Shess is a friend of mine as well... Thank you for looking after him.
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so he decides to ignore that, and focus instead on Shess for now. ]
Valvatorez has done more than me. I should have asked about it earlier.
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[you know, the thing he's spent half this conversation just
ignoring]
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kara's eyes turn toward the garden, refusing to look at him since APPARENTLY he's being forced to acknowledge that now ]
...Yes.
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[like
just wondering]
I hope my gifts reached you as well.
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That isn't how I wanted to find peace. We're supposed be free to make our own choices now, but mine was taken from me.
[ it's hard to tell if he's more upset about losing lili or... that. but he tries to let go of it, because it's already done, so what's the point of holding onto it now?
that's... a lot harder to do than he would have hoped. ]
They did, yeah.
[ ... ]
Thank you.
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[so it can at least taste a little bit like home?]
... what choice would you have made, if your full range of emotions were made available to you?
Would they have been different?
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It did taste like his cooking... like being home.
[ as for the rest... ]
Does it matter now? It's done, and there won't be a second chance.
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And yet you find now that your choices are tied to your emotions, and a key choice was removed from you once you no longer possessed your emotions.
... they are a part of us now, whether you find this agreeable or not.
[there is just a smile]
I had told you - I wondered how you might feel after the curse wore off, now that you know what it's like to be entirely without the feelings that master gifted to us.
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...I stand by what I said before. But I won't accept someone making that choice for me anymore.