[ whatever, mikazuki! kara doesn't particularly care to understand axel, to be honest. why should he? there are other things to focus on, instead of wasting his time on that.
so he decides to ignore that, and focus instead on Shess for now. ]
Valvatorez has done more than me. I should have asked about it earlier.
That isn't how I wanted to find peace. We're supposed be free to make our own choices now, but mine was taken from me.
[ it's hard to tell if he's more upset about losing lili or... that. but he tries to let go of it, because it's already done, so what's the point of holding onto it now?
that's... a lot harder to do than he would have hoped. ]
Hm... If I were to recall - you had said that emotions simply get in the way of your mission, that they're difficult and useless to us.
And yet you find now that your choices are tied to your emotions, and a key choice was removed from you once you no longer possessed your emotions.
... they are a part of us now, whether you find this agreeable or not.
[there is just a smile]
I had told you - I wondered how you might feel after the curse wore off, now that you know what it's like to be entirely without the feelings that master gifted to us.
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so he decides to ignore that, and focus instead on Shess for now. ]
Valvatorez has done more than me. I should have asked about it earlier.
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[you know, the thing he's spent half this conversation just
ignoring]
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kara's eyes turn toward the garden, refusing to look at him since APPARENTLY he's being forced to acknowledge that now ]
...Yes.
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[like
just wondering]
I hope my gifts reached you as well.
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That isn't how I wanted to find peace. We're supposed be free to make our own choices now, but mine was taken from me.
[ it's hard to tell if he's more upset about losing lili or... that. but he tries to let go of it, because it's already done, so what's the point of holding onto it now?
that's... a lot harder to do than he would have hoped. ]
They did, yeah.
[ ... ]
Thank you.
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[so it can at least taste a little bit like home?]
... what choice would you have made, if your full range of emotions were made available to you?
Would they have been different?
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It did taste like his cooking... like being home.
[ as for the rest... ]
Does it matter now? It's done, and there won't be a second chance.
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And yet you find now that your choices are tied to your emotions, and a key choice was removed from you once you no longer possessed your emotions.
... they are a part of us now, whether you find this agreeable or not.
[there is just a smile]
I had told you - I wondered how you might feel after the curse wore off, now that you know what it's like to be entirely without the feelings that master gifted to us.
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...I stand by what I said before. But I won't accept someone making that choice for me anymore.