Do you think? I am rather fond of being looked after, regarding of hierarchy. It is nostalgic.
[hm?]
Nonetheless... I suppose it can be said that I am familiar with undertaking matters into my own hands, to exact what I wish, ahead of other orders or directions.
[but he says that offhand, before truly thinking about the answer, and sips again from his own cup.]
But I think death would be preferable to being present, yet unable to act.
[after all the plans he's made, the things he's done, the matters he's taken into his own hands-- he couldn't tolerate that. he'd feel trapped, if there were no way to regain any control.]
... not willingly, but I believe that I could. It's not preferable...
[they'll admit to that, but also continue to sip their tea]
... however I rather enjoy watching the way that the years pass, and how humans will treat one another. I feel as though there is always more still to learn.
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There are times where you remind me of myself.
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I take it you don't only mean how little we tend to say of ourselves.
But if that's the case, should I also be concerned with you?
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[hm?]
Nonetheless... I suppose it can be said that I am familiar with undertaking matters into my own hands, to exact what I wish, ahead of other orders or directions.
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[there's a little pause, there, where he considers something else-- after a moment or two of silence, he speaks again.]
... for some time, looking after others was a responsibility of mine. I do have some experience, if you find yourself missing it too much here.
[he may or may not just be trying to curry favor, but, well. what could it hurt.]
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I would not wish to force your hand on the matter.
I cannot imagine that it might be difficult to look after someone you might possess ire for.
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There was a long time in which I could only watch others in silence, and make play to guess at their thoughts and motivations.
I suppose that now that I possess the ability to voice my curiosity, there is not much to stop me.
[lune does what lune wants, unfortunately]
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[a slight sigh, there. he pretty much expects that to never change, he's not holding out much hope on that one.
...he does still have to ask, though, because that's certainly something.]
Because of another role of yours, or an inability to?
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[neatly sipping tea because of course they are]
I wonder... given that we are similar in how we move now - how would you feel? If you were but left as an observer of your own lifespan?
[and then, with a slight smile in their voice]
Or is that another unwelcome question?
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[but he says that offhand, before truly thinking about the answer, and sips again from his own cup.]
But I think death would be preferable to being present, yet unable to act.
[after all the plans he's made, the things he's done, the matters he's taken into his own hands-- he couldn't tolerate that. he'd feel trapped, if there were no way to regain any control.]
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Many would.
But given the uncertainty of death.... I do not know if I am able to agree.
If one is present, perhaps they might still be able to receive from others, even if they cannot express their gratitude in return.
Perhaps that was one of the greatest frustrations of that time.
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If you had to return to that, could you?
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[they'll admit to that, but also continue to sip their tea]
... however I rather enjoy watching the way that the years pass, and how humans will treat one another. I feel as though there is always more still to learn.
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[though-- hm. he's definitely still curious.]
Just how long a time was this, Lune-san?
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[numbers are
fucking hard
but there is another laugh]
After all, I am but an old man.
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[though that probably explains why he keeps referring to humans like maybe he's not one.
with a hint of amusement in his tone, he adds-]
Perhaps that's the key difference in our views, then. If I live to become old, I may see things your way eventually.
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[rather simply, but there is a smile in their voice]
I do not know if my way of viewing the world is correct, or if it is simply what I have learned after observing people for so long.
In truth, I believe that even I am constantly learning.
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[a pause for another sip.]
Well, I suppose times are always changing, aren't they.
[but he does not sound entirely fond of the thought.]
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[so it's a little hard for them to readily agree]
Even so - are you displeased with the way that humans adapt and learn?