[but he says that offhand, before truly thinking about the answer, and sips again from his own cup.]
But I think death would be preferable to being present, yet unable to act.
[after all the plans he's made, the things he's done, the matters he's taken into his own hands-- he couldn't tolerate that. he'd feel trapped, if there were no way to regain any control.]
... not willingly, but I believe that I could. It's not preferable...
[they'll admit to that, but also continue to sip their tea]
... however I rather enjoy watching the way that the years pass, and how humans will treat one another. I feel as though there is always more still to learn.
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[neatly sipping tea because of course they are]
I wonder... given that we are similar in how we move now - how would you feel? If you were but left as an observer of your own lifespan?
[and then, with a slight smile in their voice]
Or is that another unwelcome question?
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[but he says that offhand, before truly thinking about the answer, and sips again from his own cup.]
But I think death would be preferable to being present, yet unable to act.
[after all the plans he's made, the things he's done, the matters he's taken into his own hands-- he couldn't tolerate that. he'd feel trapped, if there were no way to regain any control.]
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Many would.
But given the uncertainty of death.... I do not know if I am able to agree.
If one is present, perhaps they might still be able to receive from others, even if they cannot express their gratitude in return.
Perhaps that was one of the greatest frustrations of that time.
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If you had to return to that, could you?
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[they'll admit to that, but also continue to sip their tea]
... however I rather enjoy watching the way that the years pass, and how humans will treat one another. I feel as though there is always more still to learn.
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[though-- hm. he's definitely still curious.]
Just how long a time was this, Lune-san?
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[numbers are
fucking hard
but there is another laugh]
After all, I am but an old man.
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[though that probably explains why he keeps referring to humans like maybe he's not one.
with a hint of amusement in his tone, he adds-]
Perhaps that's the key difference in our views, then. If I live to become old, I may see things your way eventually.
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[rather simply, but there is a smile in their voice]
I do not know if my way of viewing the world is correct, or if it is simply what I have learned after observing people for so long.
In truth, I believe that even I am constantly learning.
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[a pause for another sip.]
Well, I suppose times are always changing, aren't they.
[but he does not sound entirely fond of the thought.]
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[so it's a little hard for them to readily agree]
Even so - are you displeased with the way that humans adapt and learn?