audience: shirasu

[cyclists]

Comments

[unsaid]

[no it's funny]

I am as clear as I ever am.

[THAT'S NOT HELPFUL]

But I am glad that you have opened your heart to him, however small an opportunity it may have been. It must be troubling for you.

[wagashis]

...it wasn't what I intended.

[can he not be called out for five minutes, thanks

but honestly, maybe not intending any of it is why it happened.]

[unsaid]

Does anyone ever truly intend for affection?

Or does its potency not dwell in the fact that it is entirely unexpected?

[wagashis]

It could certainly stand to be a little more predictable, troublesome as it often is.

[unsaid]

So you might have a greater chance of avoiding it?

[wagashis]

That was the original plan, yes.

[and then, well. things happened.]

[unsaid]

You are certainly against allowing yourself happiness...

[wagashis]

I'm against allowing myself distractions, in situations such as this one.

[unsaid]

Does your goal not involve happiness?

[wagashis]

I suppose it does, in some ways.

[it's complicated. for his people, definitely-- but he's unlikely to have that same warmth in his own life.]

[unsaid]

But not all...?

[wagashis]

It involves the happiness of my people more than my own-- though of course, I'll be satisfied if my desires do come to pass.