[Ooh...he'll pick up the bigger shovel, too, and now he's balancing everything as they begin to walk and follow the map.]
Where'd you find the map anyway? [It's actually hard to say if he really doesn't realize Tsuru made it himself or if he's humoring him, but either way.]
That's pretty lucky. [Wednesday meows in agreement, and off they go.] This place was really kind of boring before you guys showed up. I wonder if you being here really did change some stuff.
We had a lot to explore when it was just us, and we had each other at least. I think he probably handled it better than me though. We were both surprised when everyone suddenly showed up one day.
I don't know. Sometimes I'm worried I actually make things harder on him because I can't answer people right, so they all go to him anyway. [He's comfortable enough to tell Tsuru this, since Tsuru is apparently second-grandpa now.]
But I hope so. And maybe whatever the treasure is that we find will be something I can share with him, too.
... it may be. I'm sure he'll appreciate whatever it is, if it's from you.
[ he glances at the map, like he's studying it although his gaze shifts over back to roxas. ]
You're doing what you can. Even if you would rather not be called a child, there are many years between the two of you, so it's not surprising he has a better way with words. But despite that, I think you're doing well from what I've been able to see.
[His finger traces a line on the map before he turns just slightly to head in a different direction. Treasure!!
But...ah...]
...to be honest, I haven't really been alive for as long as almost everyone here and I'm starting to wonder if that's obvious. [Life is hard when you're simultaneously a teenager and also a toddler.] Jiji...I want to be more like him but I don't know how. People trust him and listen to him like I do, and he always seems to know what to say. We're not partners the same way you guys were when you were on that plane, but I want to be more reliable for him the longer this continues.
[...] This job isn't as unfamiliar as I thought it was. I was good at what I did back home, but I didn't like it and eventually I quit that, too. This isn't something I can quit though because there are a lot of people that need help.
Does being older really make things that much easier?
[ he nods along at all of that, and chooses to answer the question first before tackling anything else. ]
Not always... you've seen Ookurikara. He tends to act on his emotions a lot of the time and it occasionally lands him into trouble. And there are certain things that will always be difficult to deal with, no matter how often you see it.
[ the death of loved ones, lands being devastated... there are a number of things that will be hard to stomach. ]
And sometimes old age might make things harder to see from a new perspective.
I think I understand him a little better. We sparred and everything. [He sounds proud of himself...] But...I don't know if acting on emotions is really so bad.
[Roxas and Kara are very similar and he doesn't want to admit it, so.] And you're right. It's why I'm hoping maybe if he won't talk to me, Jiji will talk to you. [Because Roxas isn't dumb and he's worried about what's to come. Please support grandpa.]
...it's hard, because all of my friends are here. And I don't want anything to happen to them, but I don't know how to fix this either. A new perspective sounds great, but getting there is where I'm getting stuck. [...but he nods.] I can see why the universe chose both of us though if that's really true.
It's not that it's bad, but... sometimes acting on emotions is acting on impulse, and it doesn't yield the best results. Like how he immediately thought you were an enemy, because he was only focused on how he was feeling. Our time in that realm can be so short, so I'd like if he opened up a little sooner...
[ ah, well.... ]
Which ones are your friends, if you don't mind me asking?
I guess you're right. It's not an easy balance because sometimes impulse is the only way to get stuff done. I think people are still learning. […there's a half-smile.] He seems to be opening up a little more at least. And if you keep writing to him, I'm sure that'll help, too.
[But. Ah.] Axel and Xion. They're my best friends…and Naminé's a really good friend, too. …and I guess Saix counts even if we're not really friends, but we're from the same place. Because of that, I've been trying to keep all of them safe.
[But there's a nod because Tsuru died early and that makes sense.] Axel's really talkative so that doesn't surprise me. But they're all nice. [Except Saix, who Roxas has mixed feelings on.] ...I never wanted them to be here, but I think Lune probably feels that way about you and Ookurikara.
That's the thing. We didn't know this is what would happen, and so for you to be the first...[He's been fretting about Grandpa for a while, but also at least they're together here, but also there's Kara and and and...ahhhhhh.]
I don't want people getting the wrong idea when we tell them to make friends with one another. It's not to hurt them. It's to help.
[ it's a genuine question, because it's not like tsurumaru got to see any of their reactions of his death. he didn't even have past deaths to go by since he was the first. ]
... people are stronger when they have comrades behind them.
...I believe so, yes, but you know he's not the type to let that show. [Versus Roxas who is going to lose his shit when one of the KHs he likes finally dies.]
People are definitely stronger together, but even now there are those who refuse to cooperate. That's the really annoying part. [They're probably approaching the spot Roxas can dig.]
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[ he was hoping that roxas would say now. ]
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Then let's go!
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outside of the house there is a larger shovel, because tsuru could not fit it in the box. ]
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Where'd you find the map anyway? [It's actually hard to say if he really doesn't realize Tsuru made it himself or if he's humoring him, but either way.]
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[ he stumbled onto the materials to make it ]
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[ tsuru would have been bored out of his mind. he'd be a terrible host. ]
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You ended up with a rather good person to work with. I'm sure he feels the same way about you.
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But I hope so. And maybe whatever the treasure is that we find will be something I can share with him, too.
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[ he glances at the map, like he's studying it although his gaze shifts over back to roxas. ]
You're doing what you can. Even if you would rather not be called a child, there are many years between the two of you, so it's not surprising he has a better way with words. But despite that, I think you're doing well from what I've been able to see.
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But...ah...]
...to be honest, I haven't really been alive for as long as almost everyone here and I'm starting to wonder if that's obvious. [Life is hard when you're simultaneously a teenager and also a toddler.] Jiji...I want to be more like him but I don't know how. People trust him and listen to him like I do, and he always seems to know what to say. We're not partners the same way you guys were when you were on that plane, but I want to be more reliable for him the longer this continues.
[...] This job isn't as unfamiliar as I thought it was. I was good at what I did back home, but I didn't like it and eventually I quit that, too. This isn't something I can quit though because there are a lot of people that need help.
Does being older really make things that much easier?
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Not always... you've seen Ookurikara. He tends to act on his emotions a lot of the time and it occasionally lands him into trouble. And there are certain things that will always be difficult to deal with, no matter how often you see it.
[ the death of loved ones, lands being devastated... there are a number of things that will be hard to stomach. ]
And sometimes old age might make things harder to see from a new perspective.
It's why someone like you is definitely needed.
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[Roxas and Kara are very similar and he doesn't want to admit it, so.] And you're right. It's why I'm hoping maybe if he won't talk to me, Jiji will talk to you. [Because Roxas isn't dumb and he's worried about what's to come. Please support grandpa.]
...it's hard, because all of my friends are here. And I don't want anything to happen to them, but I don't know how to fix this either. A new perspective sounds great, but getting there is where I'm getting stuck. [...but he nods.] I can see why the universe chose both of us though if that's really true.
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[ ah, well.... ]
Which ones are your friends, if you don't mind me asking?
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[But. Ah.] Axel and Xion. They're my best friends…and Naminé's a really good friend, too. …and I guess Saix counts even if we're not really friends, but we're from the same place. Because of that, I've been trying to keep all of them safe.
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[ kara is centuries old but tsuru is still older, so he's a baby
at the rest of it though... he nods. ]
That's quite a lot... I only spoke with Axel before I died.
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[But there's a nod because Tsuru died early and that makes sense.] Axel's really talkative so that doesn't surprise me. But they're all nice. [Except Saix, who Roxas has mixed feelings on.] ...I never wanted them to be here, but I think Lune probably feels that way about you and Ookurikara.
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[ even calling him kara seems like a good way to get him mad. ]
... but probably. It's already enough to deal with watching people you're only getting to know die. But ones you were already close to...
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That's the thing. We didn't know this is what would happen, and so for you to be the first...[He's been fretting about Grandpa for a while, but also at least they're together here, but also there's Kara and and and...ahhhhhh.]
I don't want people getting the wrong idea when we tell them to make friends with one another. It's not to hurt them. It's to help.
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[ it's a genuine question, because it's not like tsurumaru got to see any of their reactions of his death. he didn't even have past deaths to go by since he was the first. ]
... people are stronger when they have comrades behind them.
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People are definitely stronger together, but even now there are those who refuse to cooperate. That's the really annoying part. [They're probably approaching the spot Roxas can dig.]
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[ please kill naminé i beg you
he opens his mouth to say something else, but then he checks the map and pauses. ]
Oh! We're almost there.
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We should start digging here, right?
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[ no one will do that ]
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