It does not lessen the sentiment that I feel toward you.
[they're not going to take it back?]
After all, you were my personal choice above others to undertake an important task. I feel it especially within my responsibility to look after you where I am able.
I want to be SAFE. I don't want to be in DANGER. I don't want my BELONGINGS TAMPERED WITH.
{ She doesn't want to be framed. She doesn't want to be scapegoated. She doesn't want to be targeted. She doesn't want ANY OF THIS. She didn't choose it. She doesn't want it. Why is it happening to her? Why? Why why WHY?
It's not so much what she wants from them but what she wants from her situation in general. She's unloading her frustrations unfairly on Lune. ]
.... certainly so. I wish that you weren't in this situation either.
[and there's a sadness in their voice - that they aren't quite able to provide a solution to her problems or look for a way to right this wrong because it is only their job to oversee and not to interfere]
I rather think that it is. Even when there is cruelty, there are moments of kindness, are there not? When people are capable of performing small miracles in the forms of love and care.
[ She laughs without any mirth. If only she could believe in kindness like that. ]
The world is such a scary place. I was bullied when I was young, but at least back then— Back then, I had all my sisters, and that was all I needed to be happy. [ Was it? Was it really? She tells herself it is. It was. It is. ] And now, that can't happen. It can't happen at all!
Now, everyone's out to get me. Everyone is. Everyone really is.
I believe it can still happen, Four, if you have but the desire. I do not think that there are many things in this world that are truly impossible. If you desire happiness, then I also wish for that for you.
[and it feels odd - to have this conversation with her without being able to meet her eyes.
so lune pauses for a moment before their fingers come up to their hood and removes it to reveal a face, colored with worry, underneath]
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[they're not going to take it back?]
After all, you were my personal choice above others to undertake an important task. I feel it especially within my responsibility to look after you where I am able.
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But you aren't able to right now.
[ that's a fact, isn't it? ]
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{ She doesn't want to be framed. She doesn't want to be scapegoated. She doesn't want to be targeted. She doesn't want ANY OF THIS. She didn't choose it. She doesn't want it. Why is it happening to her? Why? Why why WHY?
It's not so much what she wants from them but what she wants from her situation in general. She's unloading her frustrations unfairly on Lune. ]
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[and there's a sadness in their voice - that they aren't quite able to provide a solution to her problems or look for a way to right this wrong because it is only their job to oversee and not to interfere]
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[ She's so tired. Even outside of the murder dreams, she gets nightmares. She never sleeps well, she's anxious, she's paranoid, and she just hates it.
It's pathetic. She's pathetic. She acknowledges it for two seconds before she buries that realization in favor for more anger. ]
Is the universe worth all this?
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I rather think that it is. Even when there is cruelty, there are moments of kindness, are there not? When people are capable of performing small miracles in the forms of love and care.
The world has not been kind to you - has it?
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The world is such a scary place. I was bullied when I was young, but at least back then— Back then, I had all my sisters, and that was all I needed to be happy. [ Was it? Was it really? She tells herself it is. It was. It is. ] And now, that can't happen. It can't happen at all!
Now, everyone's out to get me. Everyone is. Everyone really is.
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I believe it can still happen, Four, if you have but the desire. I do not think that there are many things in this world that are truly impossible. If you desire happiness, then I also wish for that for you.
[and it feels odd - to have this conversation with her without being able to meet her eyes.
so lune pauses for a moment before their fingers come up to their hood and removes it to reveal a face, colored with worry, underneath]
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[he frowns as he regards her]
At the very least, I will not abandon you. I hope that you will be able to find faith in that.
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I— what? I'm...
[ Sometimes, you're full of hate but you still have the reactions of a teenage girl. Unfortunate. ]
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... I want to be happy.
[ She doesn't want to be abandoned. She doesn't want the world to turn on her, but she can't help but think that's the way it's going to end. ]
I want to believe you.