It's not. Or it's not supposed to be. [...] Anyway, it doesn't affect you so it shouldn't matter. Right? Our focus is on what's directly impacting you because we're not doing enough.
[He's toeing the line of being unfair, but that seems to be the issue here. He also doesn't exactly have it in him to be sarcastic and there's a small amount of something in his tone that indicates he's thinking that's true.]
I believe that none of this is your fault, and that you're doing your best. I believe you get a lot of flack from people who see you as an easy target to take their frustrations out on... And I shouldn't have been one of them. I'd hate to be in your position.
[Is it? He doesn't argue. Instead, he shifts just a little to poke at a starfish in the tidepool.]
...this isn't the first time I was put on a job and found out later that I didn't know what I was actually working for. Maybe I should have expected this. [But it's a feeble explanation for why he reacted the way he did.]
...before this...it was the first time we were all together. All of us. And now I'm the only one who really remembers what happened. I don't want anything else to happen to them. Not again.
I mean...he knows now. I had to tell him. [Read as: Axel asked and Roxas just kind of caved and explained weeks later.] It's the reason I agreed to all of this in the first place.
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[...]
But - is something else the matter?
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...you don't have to do this, you know. I get it.
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...Harsh, but fair, I guess.
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[He's toeing the line of being unfair, but that seems to be the issue here. He also doesn't exactly have it in him to be sarcastic and there's a small amount of something in his tone that indicates he's thinking that's true.]
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Like I said... I shouldn't have said that. I was upset, but that isn't an excuse.
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I believe that none of this is your fault, and that you're doing your best. I believe you get a lot of flack from people who see you as an easy target to take their frustrations out on... And I shouldn't have been one of them. I'd hate to be in your position.
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...okay. [He can acknowledge that. ] I...get it. Nobody's in an easy position right now. And I should have tried harder. So...sorry.
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...this isn't the first time I was put on a job and found out later that I didn't know what I was actually working for. Maybe I should have expected this. [But it's a feeble explanation for why he reacted the way he did.]
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...before this...it was the first time we were all together. All of us. And now I'm the only one who really remembers what happened. I don't want anything else to happen to them. Not again.
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[He's puzzled that out at least.]
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I mean...he knows now. I had to tell him. [Read as: Axel asked and Roxas just kind of caved and explained weeks later.] It's the reason I agreed to all of this in the first place.
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Did...either of them ever tell you what a Nobody is?
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Sora is--was? My Other. At least until I received this body of my own. Even with that though, he's who I came from.
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