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3. Reply to their comments with long ballads and explanations of your characters' relationship throughout the game.
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he started to consider the concept of actual love more closely when it was revealed the signs would be able to be killed. because before then, tsuru was like. he wasn't accepting of all the death happening, but he was like, "if this is the way it has to be done then you guys need to get on it already" especially with the confirmation that they could be revived at the end?? like he knows dying sucks but knowing it isn't the actual end for them made it easier. but the thought of mikazuki dying was... bad. like he hated when lili was killed, and he didn't like to think of roxas thing? but the pain he had when thinking of mikazuki being killed was different than those, even different than thinking of it happening to ookurikara, which was the most startling thing. which is why he was like, "okay i know we're dating but i wasn't expecting romantic feelings to differ this much in this sense." like, i'm not saying that jiji was more important than kara, but they occupied two very different spaces in his heart by this point and tsuru hadn't really realized how different it was until that moment. he hadn't quite reached the conclusion of being in love with him yet, but he was starting to consider the possibility. because mikazuki was something good and calm, and he was the reason that tsuru was able to keep slamming into things despite how annoyed he was at being in this situation. he hated being in the gy because he hated how extremely limited he was at being able to help. but mikazuki made it easier because he made him happy, and if it wasn't for his presence there, then tsuru would have been a lot more reckless with how he handled things.
the way endgame played out was very difficult to sit through because tsuru fully believed he should have been there?? he didn't think he would be able to talk corrupted jiji out of it or anything lmao, he never once entertained that idea, but he felt that he should have been there with him to help, since he agreed with kara with the whole a sword should be the one to break a sword thing. and watching kara and mikazuki fight was difficult, because he was worried about them both while simultaneously knowing they both had to die, so it was an odd space of both hoping that they'd be okay and knowing what needed to be done. lili's emotional reaction to what was going on and then her like snapping at him when he said it was okay because like, no it wasn't okay, was funny since like. tsuru knew it wasn't okay? but it wasn't something he could admit since he knew it also needed to be done, so it was whatever. he didn't have time to be sad about it.
telling mikazuki that he loved him was basically tsuru's goodbye to him. he didn't care if mikazuki felt the same way or didn't believe him, really. but at that point tsuru knew that two things were going to happen, which were 1) they bad end and the corruption takes over everything, thus tsuru never sees mikazuki again or 2) things go okay and then they all go their separate ways, and also tsuru probably still never sees this mikazuki again since at that point world travel wasn't confirmed and also he still wasn't sure if he was going to die or not back home. it was also why he wasn't particularly searching for jiji in the goodbye log? because he already said farewell. and it hurt, but it also would have been easier to just nyoom away. the problem was that he already told mikazuki what was waiting for him back home so of course trying to sneak off wasn't going to work but!! he wanted to try anyway!!! it's fine!!!
this is really fucking long ohhh my god i need to go to bed. i'm ending this here but just know that tsurumaru kuninaga is very much in love with mikazuki munechika, even if he doesn't entirely understand what love is from a human point of view, and also he very much likes banging him, goodnight i hate everything what the fuck